Time For Change

I’ve been thinking a lot about it this week, and I really need to change. I have been really upset with myself lately because I’ve been misbehaving a lot lately, yes, I know this blog post is going to be all about how I want to change. it’s pretty loud over here because I’m actually supposed to be babysitting, but as usual I would rather blog instead of taking care of the little children called my siblings. Don’t worry, there are two more people here who can take care of them just as well as I can, maybe even better. So anyway, I’m kind of bored right now, but as I was saying before I’d really like to change. I’ve been using some pretty vulgar language lately, and I’m a little bit worried about it because maybe that’s the reason why Harryson doesn’t like me—oh, that’s a long story that I’ll have to tell you later because I don’t have much time right now. I’m just sitting on my couch watching Wendy Wu Homecoming Warrior which I haven’t seen in forever for some reason. I feel like I’m half asleep right now, but I have no idea why, and also I’m confused about the whole Harryson situation with him asking Maddi out and everything. Well right now, I am seriously dying here. Before I started this particular post this evening, I was writing another letter to Harryson for him to read in four years when he’s about to graduate from High School. Then, I will have been graduated for a year, and probably in high school. I would do anything for that kid. I would die for him. I would seriously lose my whole reputation just to make him happy, if it didn’t in any way take him any further away from me. I want to be closer to him, but things aren’t working out very well. I’ve been saying my prayers and wishing for the best, but maybe the fact that things aren’t working out are a sign… idk. I’m just a little bit too tired to reason about all of this right now. I’ll write more as soon as I can concentrate enough. I love y’all! <3